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What do I do to ignore them behind me? 
Do I follow my instincts blindly? 
Do I hide my pride/From these bad dreams 
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I/Sit here and try to stand it? 
Or do I/Try to catch them red-handed? 
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness, 
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? 
Because I can't hold on/When I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within 
I put on my daily facade but then 
I just end up getting hurt again 
By myself [Myself] 
I ask why, but in my mind 
I find I can't rely on myself 
I can't hold on 
[To what I want when I'm stretched so thin] 
It's all too much to take in 
I can't hold on 
[To anything watching everything spin] 
With thoughts of failure sinking in 

If I/Turn my back I'm defenseless 
And to go blindly seems senseless 
If I hide my pride and let it all go on/Then they'll 
Take from me till everything is gone 
If I let them go I'll be outdone 
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun 
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer 
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer 
[By myself] 

How do you think/I've lost so much 
I'm so afraid/I'm out of touch 
How do you expect/I will know what to do 
When all I know/Is what you tell me to 

Don't you know 
I can't tell you how to make it go 
No matter what I do, how hard I try 
I can't seem to convince myself why 
I'm stuck on the outside